January 1, 2026
For more than twenty years, friends and people I’ve met along the way have encouraged me to write a book, start a blog, or even do a podcast. For just as many years, I’ve been frozen-afraid of something I couldn’t quite name. Because of that fear , I didn’t write the stories.
In 2026, I finally began journaling my journey-how I am finding my way home. Home to myself. Home to God. Home to the truest version of who I believe I was born to be.
This journey has been about learning how to live out my greatest purpose, how to be free to express myself as I was created to, and how to heal and reconnect with the Divine Source of life. The same source that flows through every living thing on this planet, calling us toward more divine light, more love, and more unity rather than division, chaos, suffering, and pain.
My hope is that these words may help guide others back to themselves, back to God, and back to the deepest source of life within them.
For over twenty years, I have been intentionally trying to reclaim the life and the self I believe I was born to be. Along the way, God has given me little pictures- moments, insights, and experiences- that have gently helped shift my heart and my direction. Click by click- Storie by story, God has used this to change me. Transformation for me is click by click, not all at once as I onced believed. At the time, I didn’t realize what God was doing in me through each one of these lessons from God. But now, looking back over two decades, I can see clearly- God was using all of life to bring me back to myself and into the awareness of the Divine Source of all life within and all round me.
When I was younger, as life unfolded around me, I began to create stories about myself- deciding what was true and what was not. Without realizing it, those stories slowly separated me from the Divine within me. I stopped trusting the intuition that rises from deep within the bell- the inner knowing which tells us what is good for us and what is not.
As I turned away from myself, I found myself in many messy, painful situations that brought deep suffering, sadness, and sorrow into my life. I didn’t recognize it then, but when God intervened -click by click- I was being brought home.
With each little story, each experience, I was click by click returning to myself and to God. Every “click” brought me closer, even when it led me into seasons of deep healing, frightening seasons of looking honestly at the suffering of my soul and acknowledging painful truths. All of it, though, was guiding me toward my truest self and toward God.
I realize now, I haven’t shared these stories because I’ve been terrified of my greater self -her power, her light, and her love. It is easy to live in suffering, in sorrow, in small and negative stories about ourselves. Hiding in the corners within doesn’t require much. But stepping into the light requires courage. It requires ownership, responsibility, and accountability. This requires claiming our divine right to take up space on this planet—and beyond it.
So today, January 1, 2026, I choose to step into the light and starry exposing my divine light within.
When I was a little girl, I had a powerful spiritual moment with God. I had drawn a picture, not with words or intention, but from a place deep within me that was overflowing with love. Something in me, even then, knew God was infinitely bigger than the smallness of my home, bigger than the limits of my mind or my thoughts and this plant.
So I walked outside into the sunlight on a hot summer day. I lifted the picture high above my head, not because I had something to say, but because my inner being was expressing love itself. I was exposing my love to God, to the vastness of Gods presence, to all the realms beyond me, around me, while also fully within me.
Today, after decades of hiding, I am stepping forward again, but this time without a drawing. I stand before God offering only myself, with all divine colors of light and love within me . I am filled with gratitude for the redemption, healing, and love I have found both outside of myself and within. I am ready to share those colors across the physical world I walk in, the emotional life I feel and heal through, and the spiritual life that connects us all.
I hope you find something beautiful within these words.
All my love,
Rebecca Dawn
